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The wind in animals' fur /feathers
There's no way to begin catching up. A self imposed reason to do so, and a lack of content to share (compared to only the best blog upate-er ever, of course, who no longer updates (blogspot)
. By best, I mean, undescribably sort of intriguing, dirty mouthed, mostly fascinating, human, artist, hitchhiker, long posts king) make for, well I don't know what. Great intro there. Anyway, I hear comparison is the thief of joy!
The inspiring and fascinating, Dave has a band now, since a few years ago, and I'm gonna go see them in November, during their first Phoenix show! Fab.
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I think I add too many commas.
Today, was my second day driving a fourteen wheel truck! Most fun time I could ask for, at, what people refer to as,
work
. Third time behind the wheel, two sessions today.
As usual, I won't gush over the details.
A couple months ago, maybe even a few.., I started a to me, massive painting. It measures 40 by 60 inches! One inch off from being as tall as me! It's pretty secretive so far, I have a few things to finish on it, and I'll share the finished product.
First Friday this month, last week, was really great! And with some added funds from my new day job, this month has been super great. Late bills were paid, food was bought (gas is still shut off, rent still isnt paid) and some was reinvested into the funding of business stuff, and it's all nearly gone again. Things are looking up though, after what feels like this whole year of 2016 worth of bad artwalk months. It's, been, bad.
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I have a new sleeping schedule, my life is backwards from what I used to know. Instead of late nights awake till the sun comes up, I am now awake and in work mode often before the sun is even around.
This is great and fun, and completely bizarre. I must admit, I love the..uh, stability, the schedule and, having a boss who isn't just me. Next best thing though! Father, who he himself, is self employed.
I shall be completing that painting I mentioned, asap. It's only second week right now and I think I'm getting used to the job thing.
I look forward to not depending on my art for money actually, specifically my personal art. It really all gets warped when you are broke. It's been a good fun 8 years though. I love everything of course. The worst of times, are really the best! Think of all that GROWING!! How could I not be excited, it's a fine path I'm on. As a lovely lady working at a goodwill register told me before I got my cdl permit said, can't complain! She really did brighten up my drab day, for just engaging in small plensantries with her. I had gone to Mesa that afternoon, for nostalgia's sake, to take my test, but they set the cut off time early, due to lots of test takers and being understaffed.
HAHaHa..
Whatever, man.
It's been a long while since I talked to myself in blog form, whatever this is called, not that that's of any importance.
That's about all I've been up to the past few months, today I ate at the very place where I got the motivation to help my dad out, at the work thing. Sixth day at work. Soon, I'll drive all on my own, and jam to loud music!
Sigh.
A good one, a nice heavy sigh of, it's not so bad. Life and living. The earth is nice to look at, people are plentiful with awe. And reflection of the self in one's own eyes and in others, just damn dandy. I just wanted illiterate there, no actual need for near swearing.
My phone got run over by the mail man vehicle today! It was exciting, at first I thought I left my, gifted-to-me, iphone in the truck. Got a phone app, to call my dad, and realized along with Aldo, that it just fell out with me as I hopped outta that truck. It survived (protective by the probably expensive glass over-the-glass that saved it, I'm 99% sure the screen is not actually cracked)! A quick inspection of the tire tracks and it's placement revealed, it was not in fact the fourteen wheeler, that ran over my phone, but just the mail delivery vehicle.
If you've seen my instagram and sc or whatever, you might have seen glimpses of my recent days of being out working. No worries. Sure, my paintings haven't been selling, or I haven't been making them easily available, or a combination of the two, but I am still painting. Like, till I die. If only for my eyes, or for whoever. They'll be made.
I just need to get it together. My room and living room/studio are a mess. All that's holding me together is this job. That's probably not true. But,
fuck
gosh, I've procrastinated a lot. I haven't cleaned out my woredrobe in like a decade, until last month. All I've worn is hand-me downs from my little sister. And things my dear momma finds for at garage sales :). Some cool finds and all, but, hahhaha, damn.
I'm done here. I'll add some pictures for interest, and uh, probably never share this post.
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I recently found out, I don't get sarcasm. Like, I do now, a little, mostly. So, apparently it's been confusing or amusing, and I wasn't even entirely aware, but hey, I can be sarcastic, that entire last sentence that is not finished being typed rn is that. Or not. I don't know.
Watching the east side of the sunset. Blue skies today, finally, behind those clouds. I think yesterday's sunset almost made me cry, why is it so pretty, and why can't I just look at it, pullover and look at it, paint it, right there, real quick. But driving with the top down of my, gifted-to-me (1992), car and wind in my face wasn't so bad either.
xxxooo
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I can't paint enough, I also want to look with my eyes, and remember the feeling of every now.
This post is too much. It's too much. You are too much. No one reads blogs anymore.
I've been forcing my life to speed up, only to learn that you can't control anything. And really, I just want it to slow down, way down.
I see these last ten years of painting, as practice. Solid good practice. I feel like I suck every time I begin painting. By the end of it, I'm like ...well, I don't know what I think, I have to finish one to let you know.
"i made a blog post"
We form habits, we do things. We loose habits.
We grow. We try again. or something. I feel frustrated, a little overwhelmed. A bit depressed.
In the Shadows wip
Current painting is nearly finished
16 in by 16 in, oil paint on wood panel. nearly finished. |
Miscellaneous
So I don't know, this page is just a quick, "hi, I was here" post. & How are you, are you here too? I wanted to make a page post, for no real reason.
but here it is.
Here's a picture:
I'd like to make a blog post about this image, but I'm not ready yet. Also
, the more I look at it, the more I want to digitally add the detail my brushes didn't allow me while in mexico, using acrylics.
p.s. If you read anything on my blog, and enjoy it in any way, please let me know, this is where I might get most of my socializing nowadays! I mean that's an exaggeration, but, it's also generally accurate.
p.p.s. If you are at all here, because you have liked me as an artist and enjoy what I create, here's this, look up @carolroque2 on instagram. or go to instagram.com/carolroque2. I alternate from having it public to making it private. I post things
that don't follow my own criteria to make it onto my main instagram account @carolroque
. The posts have the feel of, temporary explicit honesty, at best. At worst, an attempt to feel artsy and interesting. Anyway, I hope your day is well, and that you are staying cool this summer.
4:30pm Sunday, 08.16.2015
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this paper above, was created before 2008 was over, while I lived at home with my parents. They were still together. the paper i used as palette for a bit looked too good to pass up writing on it.
p.s. I guess since you've read this far...I shall, share with you my secret blog:
http://herbrokeneyeball.blogspot.com
It wasn't secret at first, that was my first happening blog. It is now imported to this very blog you are at right now, all the posts, they are combined. Here,
I'll link you to the post that was officially carolroque.blogspot's first post
, it has since been edited. But for the past however long, after merging the two, I continued posting over there, so.. I split the timelines, again. I tend to do that. I'm trying to stop.
1:47am Monday, 08.17.2015
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Latest Large Painting
My friend did a better job of documenting my work than me. This is his picture, I figured I should definitely share it here, finally. It's to be noted that the friend I speak of, is also the other half of BrokeBot, my collaborative project/day-job. I've named this painting "The Extent" and I am so so happy with how it turned out. This size is amazing to work on, it's rewarding in a much different way than small pieces are.
Vast Emptiness wip
p.s. Check Instagram to see a glimpse at the finished version.
About
b. 1986
-BELOW Shop Feature and Interview
-Taking a Closer look at “Portraits of Bohemia”
-Downtown Phoenix Journal Interview
-100 Creatives feature
-June 19th
Frontal Lobe Gallery, Solstice, Phoenix, Az
-September
{9} the Gallery, Portraits of Bohemia, Phoenix, Az
-September
Method Art Space, Group Show, Scottsdale, Az
-March
Eye Lounge, Benefit Group Show, Phoenix, Az
-November
Eye Lounge, Invitational Group Show, Phoenix, Az
-March
5&6 Fine Art Space, Group Show, Scottsdale, Az
-July
5&6 Fine Art Space, Group Show, Scottsdale Az
-June
Waldoism Gallery, Solo Show, Phoenix, Az
Waldoism Gallery, Group Show, Phoenix, Az
Instagram of Current Work on the Easel
End of Day one
Blue Haired Babe
Painting Timelapse
In progress painting
Check it Out! I was recently interviewed!
It was posted about ten days ago. I was quite satisfied with my answers. It did not take 15 to write, hah, that was my initial goal about it. More like a challenge.
The Muse that Lingers
The Muse that Lingers as photographed + framed by Roqué Anderson |
The Muse that Lingers
18 by 24 inches on hardboard, sold |